Yeah I know, it’s June, and here I am, making a stream highlights video of the year 2018… A lot of things happened to me last year, good and bad… The bad was actually worse than anything I ever experienced relationship, familywise, and “who the hell am I, what am I doing with my life”-wise. I never felt as lost as I was during those months… One thing that kept me going was how much love and support I got from you guys. Streaming was my medicine. A couple of these clips are taken from days where I cried minutes before going live. And unfortunately I can say that without any exaggeration. But even in my saddest, most depressed moments I never wanted to show how bad I felt. I just wanted to keep being the person that cheers others up with her streams and videos. So I listened to cheerful music and forced a smile on my face before I hit “go live”. The magic of Twitch is that my initial unhappy smile would turn into an actual cheerful state while I was streaming. I was truly happy for the duration of the streams and it made me forget about my problems. And that’s how the girl who wanted to make others happy ended up needing her community (you guys!) to be happy… I wanted to write this all out of my soul to be able to give you all a big THANK YOU for saving me, even if you didn’t know I was in pain. And secondly, I want to officially close that stage of my life, leave all the misery and depression of 2018 behind. “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” they say and I think I learnt a lot from those emotional scars and actual tears. Here’s to moving on and finding myself again. Here’s to having started with a blank page a new chapter in my life. Here’s to being happy again ❤️
Stream Highlights (actual happy moments of 2018!) edited by String_Dogg and Anna
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